Good morning, friends! It’s 11:11, time for another installment!
Thought I might have a soundtrack for today’s post to help set the mood of the times it will cover (kinda like the Jefferson’s theme song from yesterday’s post…man, I love that theme song. So happy!) So, to hear today’s song, click this link to open it in another window to hear it, then minimize the new window (minus sign, top right corner of new window.)
In today’s installment, I think I’ll dip down into the murky, scary times for a brief moment, then quickly return to your regularly scheduled programming of Shiny-Happy-Karen. Sound good? If so, read along.
So this song…I can not express enough love for this song, it completely spoke to me for most of the past year. Just something about it is so precious and fragile and haunting to me, such an understanding of darkness in it, all the while making me feel at peace with dash of hope for the future. (Thanks, KT.) I listened to it many o’ time…and it helped a lot when I was thinking lovely thoughts such as:
“I am so worried and scared that I’m not good enough (read worthy enough) or experienced enough to build my own business.” or
“Am I taking too much time building this business slowly but surely? Was that the right approach to let it happen organically versus jumping right in and trying to keep some momentum from the studio I worked at?” or
“Eeegads! Will anyone ever hire me when I finally do hang up my shingle?”
Blekh. That five months sucked. Bad! Just ask my husband. But…turns out, all of those questions that plagued my brain were simply fear and temporary obstacles in the end.
Plain old fear of failing. Or was it fear of succeeding? The latter is probably closer to truth if I’m being honest with myself. The point with all of this and the reason I am telling you these stories is: I truly believe that it is necessary for all of us to trust our own instincts and process. Whatever form that takes. Because when you are true to you and it all stems from love, then people and circumstances support that, and the happiness follows. I have had so many conversations about this last notion over the past year especially, with friends and strangers alike. And I did want to talk about it because I know that almost all of those people feel or have felt the same fear that I did and still do at times. We all do. And I want to say to them: just keep on keeping on. It will all be OK if you just love yourself and follow your gut (and work really hard, too….I mean, c’mon! This isn’t a magic potion.)
As Dagaz once told me: “A lot of hard work can be involved in a time of transformation. Undertake to do it joyfully.”
I get by with a little help from my friends
OK, so enough about that, on to giving props to the folks who helped me get through the segment of time in this here Part 2.
You may wonder why I’m so damned optimistic. Lots do. Well, I’ll tell you: I have an incredibly huge network of people who love me and support me. And I love them (you!)
Over the period I spoke of above, I collected hundreds of little gems of encourgement along the way and they are truly what kept me chugging along. Things like what you’ll see a sampling of below were either written in my notebooks by others, said by others and I jotted them down, and written on my attic studio walls. Here are just a few of their words that meant so much to me at the time they were spoken…
“The shortest pencil is better than the longest memory”- Ron about writing stuff down.
“Seems like one part energizes the other part” – Peg about me worrying that I’m not able to handle juggling both work and family.
“If you sit still long enough, the world will come to you” –JB, when I was fretting AGAIN over my then-current focus…while I was still in the niche-figuring-out phase.
“Don’t over-analyze, you know what to do.” – Jon, early on in the fretting stage.
“Look how long it took you to find an American-made pair of shoes” – Eric, on not worrying about taking the time to figure out what shade of “green” my business would become.
“Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson via Paul’s awesome collection of quotes he sent me on a bad day
”You have such a knack with people. You’ll do fine, just trust yourself. ” -Mom and Dad
Thanks to all the peeps who provided the words I needed to hear during the times I needed to hear them. Only a few are quoted here, but to all you others too: Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I’ll see you tomorrow for Part 3: Wherein I pay money to a woman in Canada to give me a much-needed virtual smack upside the head. Worth every penny…